Motherhood

So as you all know Gage was born on September 19Th @ 8:09 p.m. He weighed 6lbs 15oz and was 20 in long! The whole birthing process was NOTHING like I had hoped for or even thought about. I got to the hospital at 6 a.m. that morning to be induced. Well after an HOUR of trying to get my IV in they finally called in the anesthesiologist to dig down in my arm to find a vein. Needless to say my arms STILL look like I have been shooting up for years because of the many blown veins. So the whole day just started out bad. Luckily I have a REALLY high pain tolerance and can handle pretty much anything..... After hours of contractions and only being dilated to a 4 my doctor told me I would be having a C-section. Not what I wanted but okay.....They get me back in the operating room and are trying to get me numb because my previous epidural had worn off way too quick....so they try once, I can still feel everything...so they try again, no difference...so they decide they have to give a spinal block, that doesn't take. So I'm lying on the operating table just waiting and all of a sudden ALL of the medication kicks in and my entire body goes numb and I can't breath so I end up having to be completely put under, No fun at all!! I didn't get to meet Gage until 2 hours after he was born :( But I will have to have c-sections with any future pregnancies. My cervix doesn't dilate like it should and my pelvic bones are too small, who would have thought that? haha NOT me because I'm not exactly small.

On another note, Thank the Lord for the Internet and Skype because Ted got to see his baby boy fresh outta the oven. I've only seen videos but Ted had the entire 3rd floor of the hospital crying! Every time I had a new nurse come to my room the next two days I was referred to as the woman with the military husband that made the hospital cry.... good stuff :)

I am so thankful that my cousin Whitney was there to do anything and everything that I needed help with during and after delivery. She even bathed me the day after...that's love! haha It's never fun to stay in the hospital alone so I was glad to have her there with me that first night. The second night however I was alone and it was kinda tough. I really felt like I needed Ted there that night. When you are in the hospital there is no sleeping. Nurses are in and out all night so I was awake most of the time with so much on my mind. It was so amazing to just sit and stare at my son. I had a very strange feeling come over me at one point. I don't know how to explain it, but my whole pregnancy I missed my mom more then anything...so laying there in the same hospital, in a room exact to the one she lost her battle with cancer in, I had an overwhelming sense of emotion come over me that I brought a life into the world at the same place she lost hers. It became very comforting. I know that may seem weird but it was something I needed. I miss her so much and sometimes can't help but cry when I look at Gage because I know how much she would love to be here. She would have been the most amazing Nunna to mine and my brothers kids. I love and miss you more then anything momma, can't wait to see you again one day. I also have to say how thankful I am of the rest of the amazing people I have in my life that were there for me and there to visit Gage....Danin, I wish ya'll would have gotten the chance to come back and experience it with me...Thank you for being there also, I LOVE YOU! ....Just so everyone knows, she missed a Britney Spears concert that she paid big bucks for just to be there for me....such a wonderful cousin/friend.

Gage is doing GREAT! We had his 2 wk check up today and the doctor says he's healthy as a horse! He is up to 8 lbs now which surprised me and the doctor! I have learned really fast how to do everything one handed...including this blog! It's amazing how much you can love someone the second you meet them. He looks JUST like his daddy which is perfectly fine with me because his daddy is one handsome man :) Now we are just counting down the days until Ted is home from deployment and our perfect little family is all together!

Gage keeps me very busy so there is no telling when I will post again...Jordan, your blog post was super sweet, Thank you!! Hope you and Stephen are doing great and hope too see ya'll when we make it back to Florida!